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Hmmm…

29-Mar-06

What if I had something that visited my del.icio.us bookmarks and looked for tags marked ‘tobuy’ or ‘todo’ or ‘toread’ and made nice little lists for me?

That’d be cool.

Dividing the Self

21-Mar-06

In [a very interesting exploration of social networking sites][1], danah boyd talks (among other things) of two concepts that fascinate me: the ’super public’ — the idea of a local community grown so large and tightly knit that people with vastly differing ideas come into contact on a daily basis — and collapsed contexts — when the social supports for these differing ideas degrade as a result of interaction.

Many of us who use the Internet have our own ‘digital divide’: our digital persona, which for many people is more open and daring than our analog persona, which must deal with much more rigid and structured social contexts. In the ‘real world’, we deal much more viscerally with the values of our parents, our friends, our co-workers than we do in this new ‘digital world’ that pushes free expression as a high moral value.

Much has been made in broadcast news of teenagers posting racy pictures on MySpace, but why? In the context of of teenage behaviors alone, we’re all aware that people of that age are experimenting with their own sexuality; in the ‘real world’ we have a tacit agreement that they do it where we can’t see it, so we don’t have to worry about it. On sites like myspace, those heretofore private behaviors become public, even if on a fairly tame level. If these parents are troubled by their children posting pictures of themselves in tight pants with thongs peeking out, they’d be even more troubled to learn what their children do over IM, or when they call their long-distance boyfriends. But to drive them away from those behaviors, protected as they are by digital distance, is to drive them directly into similar and perhaps more hazardous behaviors in ‘the real world.’ Why? Because in the rigid contexts of the ‘real world’, the constructs that support and detract from these behaviors are much harder and less forgiving.

In the collapsed contexts of the online world, people are finding that they can experiment with the actual paradigms they live by, manipulate them, test them, explore them in a way that doesn’t have immediate physical or social impact, and as a result are developing new moral ideas to cope with our rapid change from local self to global self.

But in our expressions of self - as we become more honest and open online, as we move toward our global selves, our need for the private self increases. As the Bush administration continues to push its agenda of fear and division, I hear the argument all too often that people who want privacy must be doing something wrong.

But “wrong” in a world of collapsing contexts and colliding moral codes is not the same as “Wrong ” with a capital W. Our understanding of right and wrong is rapidly changing as we become more and more exposed to social contexts that we’d previously ignored or denied. And as the digital world becomes more entwined with the digital world - until we have virtually no distinction between the two - the communities that clash as a result will spar over these changing concepts in very real and possibly dangerous ways. How many honestly believe that news shows talking about teenagers posting racy pictures on MySpace actually discouraged — instead of _encouraged_ pedophiles from looking around? And in terms of what WAS recommended, other than the futile moral outrage from people who think that teenagers can actually DENY their sexuality, privacy was most important: keeping distance between our digital self and physical self.

But we can’t stop these worlds from colliding. They already are, and as we become exposed to the ’super public’, an ever growing ‘local’ community of people, it will become more and more difficult to ignore the voices that disagree. What happens then? History says there are two major eventualities: growth, and violence.

Often the violence comes first. Those who have the ability to lord their moral codes over others use force and violence to attempt to squash conflicting ideas. Sometimes that force is simply through the use of fear and threats; sometimes through physical harm.

Is it any wonder that - even as our identities become more open and more available to a greater audience, we simultaneously have a greater need to choose what we keep private and what we do not? It isn’t about committing crimes, or just keeping my bank account information safe; privacy is as much about defining the boundaries of my Self as is openness. Only the two working together produce a healthy definition of self; and in a world where the contexts supporting so much of the ideas we think of as intrinsic to ourselves are collapsing, we’d do well to carefully consider what we wish to share, who we wish to be, and how we wish to deal with what’s coming…

A world where it’ll be impossible to ignore that the lines we’ve used to separate ourselves from others are being erased and where defining self truly becomes an individual process.

[1]: http://www.danah.org/papers/FriendsterMySpaceEssay.html

Ouch.

03-Mar-06

I’ve been practicing yoga for nearly two and a half years now, so this morning’s events took me quite by surprise… Before joining __Zaadz__, I had gotten into the habit of doing my yoga practice at home instead of at the Ashtanga studio where my girlfriend studies, so I’ve gotten used to a more mellow, but still vigorous, practice.. However, we’re both good friends with the teacher there, and we’re leaving the island soon, so she wanted me to come back for the last several practices.

This morning I made it about halfway through the Ashtanga primary series when I suddenly became very tired and lightheaded, so I made my way quickly to the studio’s bathroom. I intended to sit there and rest for a few minutes until my head cleared up, and then return to go through the closing sequence.

I never made it.

I came to as my head *bounced* **twice** off the tile floor. To spare you the details, I’ve got a split lip, a broken front tooth and a bit of a bump on my forehead, but otherwise, I’m alright. The doctor’s official diagnosis was dehydration causing simultaneous high heart rate and low blood pressure - we’re talking _low_: at times I couldn’t even stand up without my blood pressure dropping through the floor, even with the paramedics holding me up.

I’m not sure about dehydration because I’ve been drinking about a gallon of pure water a day, plus other fluids, so I should be well hydrated. Last time I was in the hospital the doctor noted a very minor arrythmia, and I suppose that’s a possibility. In any case, other than that my cardiovascular system is in excellent shape, great blood pressure (when I’m not falling off of stools) and a resting heart rate hovering around 64 beats a minute.

So, I’m still in a little bit of pain due to the tooth injury; I’ve called around on the island to see if there’s anything I can do here. Otherwise, taking care of it when I get back to Boston will be one of my main priorities.

So. Ouch. And face injuries (especially lip and nose ones) create a lot of blood.

I’m going back to my less intense yoga practice for a while… the one big change between my home practice and my studio practice is in intensity — just being around other yogis amps up my intensity, and I really try to engage the bandhas and ujjayi breath when I’m there, whereas when I’m at home, I keep my mind engaged in the practice but don’t sweat the details as much.

I guess I’ll spend a few days resting up and reading [Getting Real][1] and thinking about about ways I can improve Zaadz and get back to some of my major personal projects when I’m back at 99%.

[1]: https://gettingreal.37signals.com/

Come for the Rails, stay for Enlightenment

20-Feb-06

In my last post, I mentioned my friend Michal’s [new blog][1], where he writes:

> I think a blog needs a strong **focus**. It’s hard to build an audience when one minute you’re writing about your pet iguana, and the next minute you’re writing about your favorite programming language. For example, my personal blog is **all over the map**. As a result, **few people read it**.

He goes on to explain that when his work demands a new topic, he’ll start a new blog, rather than create a diluted blog with multiple topics. I can see a problem for people like me, who will now have to keep up with all of his blogs instead of one central location for everything he writes. Sure, I’m not really into __forex trading__, for example, but I learn a little when I read those posts.

On the other hand, where would I go if I needed concise and focused information on forex trading? Well, to one of Michal’s blogs maybe!

In my as-yet-unfinished Rails-based (because every Rails developer needs to scratch that itch) blog/personal publishing platform (__[Clutter][c]__), I’m experimenting with combining those two concepts based on the idea of tagging. To explain, there are three major topics I talk about on a semi-regular basis on _Unquiet_:

* [Rails][2]
* [Buddhism][3]
* and my life!

According to Michal (and to search engine experts and _pro bloggers_), splitting the Rails posts and the Buddhism posts into separate blogs would help build an audience and improve my Google Ads performance. Doing that, however, causes the problem I mentioned yesterday — __identity fragmentation__.

So Clutter approaches things a little differently… items tagged ‘rails’ not only show up on my main blog page, but also on subpages, for example `/clutter/tag/rails`. Wordpress plugins let you do this part already; the cool part is that I’m designing the application so that I could drop in a new theme for that tag only, and so I can point different domain names to any part of the application.

When I replace my current blog engine (WordPress) with Clutter, I’ll be able to have separate blogs with separate themes and separate appearances at rails.unquiet.net, buddhism.unquiet.net (or even anunquietbuddhist.net), mimicking the flexibility and focus of separate blogs while making it easier for me to have a centralised blog (blog.unquiet.net) where _everything_ goes.

That’s how I feel organizing my incoming and outgoing information works best: _one input, many views; one output, many expressions_.

[c]: http://blog.unquiet.net/tag/clutter/page/2/
[1]: http://cashflowblogging.com/2006/02/the-blog-work-cycle
[2]: http://blog.unquiet.net/tag/rails
[3]: http://blog.unquiet.net/tag/buddhism

ComeBack comes back…

19-Feb-06

I while ago I wrote about a concept of mine I called ‘[ComeBack][cb]’, based on the idea of bringing my own comments on other people’s sites back to my own:

>What if there were some sort of tool that allowed me to comment on other people’s blogs and have my comments appear as ‘comebacks’ on my site? In essence, it would work by me telling my own blog that I posted a comment somewhere and my blog confirming that it was really me, then posting the comment on my own as a mini-entry.

With the recent launch of [coComment][cc], this idea comes closer to reality; however, in the coComment model, the problem is one of centralisation… coComment tracks your comments on other people’s sites, but it does so by using a central server, a single entity that could disappear along with all that comment data and the relationships between sites. Bob Aman over at Sporkmonger [says it well][1]:

> Centralization almost always loses if decentralization can be done elegantly and effectively.

He also notes that there’s an obvious demand for the ability to track your comments elsewhere… There are whole companies [based on the idea][2] of ‘identity aggregation’ and coComment’s model (as well as ComeBack) stems from the problem of _identity fragmentation_: Our efforts in separate communities for the most part remain separate despite the fact we, as individuals, consist of all these efforts. So our blog exists as one of our identities, our email another, our comment-streams on other blogs become multiple identities.

I should note here that I’m more a fan of information aggregration - of bringing as much possible information as possible into a single structured space with multiple views - rather than information specialisation - segmenting information into discrete spaces, as a friend of mine seems to be doing now as he launches [2 new blogs][3]. I’m interested in coherence of identity, in answering the question ‘who is Jacob Stetser and what’s important to him?’ than in coherence of subject - which Michal rightly notes works better in terms of building an audience (as well as improving search engine results and Google Ad revenues!)

To me, there are two problems inherent in our modern levels of information production and information consumption:

1. The information we produce fills too many separate silos - how do we keep track of our own identity?
2. The information we consume arrives in too many different ways - how do we keep track of it all?

ComeBack is a partial solution to the first problem, bringing pieces of our identity back into our space and in the process expanding the potential audience of web-based conversations to our own ‘audience’ - the people who read our blogs and know us well.

I envision the actual implementation of ComeBack to be a combination of OpenID-style authentication, globally-unique identifiers for every comment, and RSS… all packaged up in a nice plugin for Typo or WordPress, and/or comment aggregation/identity services similar to coComment.

Over the next few weeks I’d like to work up a better description and initial specification for ComeBack - interested parties are welcome to contact me!

[cb]: http://blog.unquiet.net/archives/2005/05/22/comeback-kid/
[cc]: http://www.cocomment.com/
[1]: http://sporkmonger.com/articles/2006/02/13/decentralized-commenting
[2]: http://suprglu.com/glufactory
[3]: http://cashflowblogging.com/2006/02/the-blog-work-cycle