Unquiet

First of all, I’ve switched my photo gallery to use [Flickr][], because it’s easier to maintain than the old system. You can view whatever photos I’ve made publicly available by clicking [Recent Photos][pix] here or in the sidebar.

[flickr]: http://flickr.com/photos/unquiet/
[pix]: http://blog.unquiet.net/photos/

Now that I’ve got the details out of the way, I was talking to Jess today about my current situation here on Maui, which is less than ideal according to where I’d **like** to be with my life, but to which I’m not reacting with terror or anxiety. For too much of my life, fear of not having a place to live, food to eat, or a job to provide the money for those things, ruled my thinking and my decisions. Here, just a few months after we arrived on the island, I hit what was up to that point, my bottom.

And imagine that, I _lived_. And ever since, I’ve found an incredible serenity in my life; not that I’ve got a perfect existence or that I don’t sometimes get angry or scared. I still do — but I live without the spectre of the sword of Damocles dangling over me. I _want_ a job, and I _want_ a place to live that is more my own, but these things no longer frighten me the way they used to.

I have a strong feeling that I’m now making changes in my life for the **right** reasons, and that for that reason I’m finally heading down the path I was meant to travel.